anyone else not feel like they have a personality due to the fact that they’ve been masking since they were really little and now have no idea who they are underneath the fake persona they put on and everytime they think they’ve figured something about about themselves they have to contemplate whether it’s really a genuine personality trait or it’s just something they made up to make themselves feel like someone they’re not? because same.
Sometimes I look in the mirror and get really startled. Like I’m a living, breathing, tangible being who doesn’t exist only in my imagination and people can actually see me? I am a human being like everyone else? Holy shit.
“If you asked me now who I am, the only answer I could give with any certainty would be my name. For the rest: my loves, my hates, down even to my deepest desires, I can no longer say whether these emotions are my own, or stolen from those I once so desperately wished to be.”
I have this storm in my head… In my soul… And I can’t calm it, I can’t stop it… I can’t get used to it either, I can’t find peace with myself… I wish I could stop and silence my life and lousy mind.
I miss seeing this shit all the time, I never got it at first because I don’t feel “fine” but sometimes, on those rare special occasions, he makes me feel everything… I wish I would of gotten it then rather than being sad now I don’t have it at all 😕
I wish I always knew how to have pride in myself, but I love every one of you who are out and proud. Have a great month every month, and never dull your shine 🌟✨
ah to be 14 in your high schools GSA and we all have short or dyed hair, wearing large hoodies, same fashion sense of flannels/black leggings/graphic tees, we all wear the same thick framed glasses…
if you ever looked like this once in your life i want you to know that i love you devistatingly so you are my bretheren and our kinship is stronger than anything else
I love you and you drive me insane… These days I’m ruining our life and blaming you, these days I don’t know what to do. Help me be who you want to see everyday, because I hate myself and… I don’t belove in myself. I just want to be someone who makes you happy, instead I’m the only one who hurts you in your entire day. I love you, and you drive me insane.
